Pregnancy
My pregnancy was nothing but exhausting. At 8 weeks pregnant I started bleeding. Terrified was an understatement. I had already had 2 miscarriage prior to falling pregnant with my rainbow baby, I knew what was coming the instance I saw blood. I got in my car and drove to the emergency room where I thought I'd be told my baby wouldn't make it. Instead they told me she had a 1 in 10 chance of making it. I was diagnosed with a sub chorionic Hematoma. If you're unsure of what that is it is a bleed in the uterus where the baby/ placenta becomes detached from the uterus. The bleeding could absorb back into my body, I could release the bleed, or it could harm my unborn child. I was on bedrest from 8 weeks until 20 weeks. After battling with the doctor I had from 8 weeks until 10 weeks I decided to find a new doctor. This doctor helped me carry my daughter to term.
They put me on progesterone until 14 weeks and had me take baby aspirin my entire pregnancy which helped my blood flow properly and help the sub chorionic hematoma go away. After 20 weeks I found out she was breeched onto of having low amniotic fluid therefore it was too risky to try and turn her. I had to drink a ton of water. So much water I felt like I was drowning. It wasn't a guarantee the water would help my fluid levels but its the only thing they can do. I was sent to a high risk doctor where I was getting 2 ultrasounds done a week to make sure amniotic fluids weren't to low and she was still growing on track. From 34 weeks until I gave birth at 38 weeks I was told every week how they were thinking about taking her early. Thankfully her levels stayed on the lowest end of normal and didn't drop any lower.
March 11th 2021, I was scheduled for my c-section. I woke up that morning feeling terrified, sick to my stomach and overwhelmed. My c-section was scheduled for 12PM, I lived 45 minutes from the hospital and I had to be there an hour early. I showered, got dressed and was out the door by 9AM. The entire car ride all I could think about was how terrified I was, wanting to sink into my seat and disappear. The closer we got to the hospital the more my skin was crawling off my body. Thankfully I had my mom with me because I don't think I would have been able to do it alone. After we made it to the hospital and I was all checked in they had me get undressed and put the gown on. Hooked me up to the baby monitor when contractions started. In my mind I knew she was coming this day regardless on being scheduled or not. I was super thankful to already of been in the hospital when I all started. 10 minutes before they were going to take me back to the operating room a trickle of fluid covered the bed. At first I thought I peed myself until it wouldn't stop leaking. I told the nurse who came into my room to unhook me from the monitors before taking me back to the table.
The whole time we walked down the hallway to the operating room, which felt like miles there was fluid just gushing everywhere. It was one of the grossest feelings ever. But, they get me situated in the room. prep me for my spinal tap while I start freaking out and hysterically crying because I am terrified of needles. The sweet nurse holding me helped calm me down as the anesthesiologist pokes me in the back. He does whatever it is he needs to do and lays me down on the bed. I still don't feel any different. A few minutes pass by while they prep my belly and I start to not be able to feel my feet. Cool, I thought I won't feel a thing. The doctor pinches me to see if I am numb yet. I felt it and told him instantly that I could feel him pinching me. For some reason the doctor didn't believe me. At this point they bring my mom in, tilt my bed some to where my head is lower then my feet to hopefully help the numbing and start cutting me opened. At that point I start screaming, feeling the entire procedure from the first layer being cut opened, to them pushing my daughter out from under my ribcage down to the opening. They refused to give me any sort of comfort until she was out. My mom stood up as they pulled her out. Beautifully blue baby with the cord wrapped around her neck not breathing. Heaven Willow born at 1:38pm March 11th 2021, I remember laying there in fear as I waited for her first cry. Felt like an eternity but she finally let out this quite soft cry. Not like the cries you hear on t.v shows but very soft squeaky like. I could finally breath!
They cleaned her up a little wrapped her up and handed her over to my mom as they finished getting everything out before sewing me up. I seen her for 2 seconds, was able to give her a kiss and out the room with my mom she went. At that point I was so drugged up that I don't remember anything until I was taken back to my room . Once I entered the room I was greeted by my mom and my freshly newborn. My mom placed her 6lb 13oz body directly into my arms, her chubby cheeks eating up her whole face. Her brownish red hair, her tiny little nose, hands and feet. She was perfect! Everything I just went through was so worth it.
